It’s not often that I find myself here anymore.
Since the beginning of 2020, I’ve been feeling an enormous shift in the universe. A lot of changes have made their way into my personal life, but also the entire world. Every human is carrying a heavy weight on their shoulders, and feelings of fear, stress, sadness, or hopelessness.
I sit here as worried and overwhelmed as many of you are, but am trying to stay positive in the process.
A month ago we were free to roam the streets, sit in our favorite coffee shops, go to work, and embrace the people around us. But now, we are faced with the fact that doing these things could be the difference between life or death.
A few days ago, I received notice that I will never step foot in my school again for the rest of the semester. Some people might feel overjoyed hearing this, but for me, it’s the equivalent to a broken heart.
I didn’t know it at the time, but Tuesday March 10 was the last time I would sit in a classroom as a college sophomore. It was the last time I would see my closest friends, speak to my favorite teachers, and observe New Yorkers in their natural habitat… for now, at least.
I am struggling to accept this new way of life, of rarely leaving my home, doing school work from my bedroom, and physically avoiding other people. Though, I pray this isn’t my new normal.
These past few days have made me realize how fortunate I am to have the life that I do. I’ve been reminded to never take the following things for granted: My good health, a handshake with a stranger, full shelves at the store, conversations with neighbors, a crowded room, rush hour traffic, a classroom to learn, and the freedom to travel. I would have never thought these things would matter so much to me, until now.
At a time like this there are so many uncertainties, so many questions, and few answers.
Perhaps humans will come out of this better, stronger, and kinder. Perhaps this will lead America to finally get it’s shit together, too.
For now, I encourage you to take time for yourself. Complete the things you’ve been putting off. Clean. Organize. Set new goals. Reach out to loved-ones. Stay informed, but know when to turn off the noise.
Remember this: Nothing bad ever happens. It’s all to learn and grow.
Sending you light, love, and good health.
Good luck out there.